29 weeks & getting ready (showers.ect)

So this weekend i realized i am only 11 weeks away from this little guy entering the world... I have known it was real, but for some reason it felt really REAL this weekend... as i lay there i was making a list in my head of things we needed, didnt need, had, didnt have... and i started getting kinda scared.. i know and realize that if i end up not having something its not the end of the world.... and i could do without.. but what if i dont make a good mom, or don't know why the baby is crying, or can't get him to stop crying... I know, i bet all first time mom's go through this.. but i'm just getting worried that i'm not going to be all that i can be.... But my cousin Emi said something to me one day and it has actually helped alot. She said to put all the WHAT IF'S in the closet and shut the door.. so thats what i'm trying to do.

We went to our family christmas party yesterday at my Aunts. we did the whole dinner, and santa. I got kinda emotional when Santa asked me and Brady what we wanted for christmas and he blurted out "a healthy baby" how cute is that, and it was him that thought of it.. not me. i was thinking a vacation, toys, and ya know.. normal christmas stuff.. i realize now that sometimes people dont get the husbands enough credit. they tell me it wont be real to him until he hold the little guy.. but all in all he is very involved and i know that he is just as excited (and probably scared) as i am..... that little comment made my whole season! My Brady has been wonderful through this all! he has helped out a lot, and made me comfortable and stable throughout the whole thing! he hasn't missed one dr. appointment, and compliments me on a daily basis.

but thinking about how close it is coming..... i am getting ready to have my baby shower, and didnt want to leave anyone out that was wanting to come.. my mind is kinda scattered so i thought i'd ask on here if you want to come if i can get your address :) thanks, and i know its not the most formal way to ask!

i hope everyone has a MERRY CHRISTMAS this week!!!! i can't wait to see what everyone gets.. i hope santa visits each of you!